I think i m lucky enuff tat my parent give mi freedom to do whatever i wish to do.... althought sometime still will nag mi.. After a chat with my dad, he tell mi alot of his story... although last time also gt say, but after all tat have happen to mi. i started to listen to him seriously for the 1st time... he tell mi to be polite to others, dun remember bad thing tat other ppl do to u.. but while listening to him, i suddenly rmb tat most of my relative say tat i was more n more like my father character. which i found tat i was following wat my dad do... like been polite to elderly.... i wish tat i can continue to be like his carefree and have this freedom for the rest of my life...
I hate choice which will affect the future..... like the time my N level result come out.. i have to choice between retain or go ITE.... so so so sian..... i prefer a situation where i dun need to chose and there is onli 1 choices... cos if have choice i will have to weight the pros and cons... ahhhhh..... i dun like to do this kinda of thing... zzzzzzzzz.... y must give mi choicesss.....
Reasons for myself to go poly: Confirm can watch World Cup(haha for myself onli), can buy laptop, next time mayb can find betta job, dun need go ns so fast....
Reason for nt going: cant cope with it, have to make new fren again(all over again zzzzzz), veri damn exp the sch fees(scare no $$$$$ to pay).....
Reason for going NS: dun need to study, got money take
Reason for not goin NS: i no stamina( will be half dead at there), scare i tio the june patch cant watch World Cup, scare homesick...
I m writting this blog in the memories of my late 2nd uncle who passed away last fri...... When i 1st heard about the news, i dunno how to react as it was so sudden.... but by the 2nd day when the prayer for him is on.... My tear was like a tap which was nt turn tightly, the tear jus flow down freely.... i also dunno the reason for this, mayb is becos when i remember the last time i see him is on the CNY day 1 when i go to my aunt hse..... He was still his normal self.... Disturbing us as him nephew and niece.... But i tink wat make mi cry is tat when i tink of the last thing he ask was tat when was the NBA All-Star.... I reply he in a veri unhappi tone tat i dunno the date.... whiich i really dunno but i should have reply him properly.... All was too late now...... N when the 1st prayer is finish i have stop crying... as i dun have too much tear to cry.... but when the next 3 prayer happen i cant help but also cry with them.... as whenever i walk round the cofin as part of the prayer i see my 1st aunt cry and my dad was also crying at the back of the line... as my dad and my 2nd uncle are quite close.... seeing him cry so much in one day is the 1st time..... as i think he is too sad to be able to be console... and then when his cofin was on the way to out of the funeral places there is a walk for a little distance as a sign like to ask him to go peacefully... when the last leg of journry is completed and we all go onto the bus for the rest of the jounry... my dad go up to the car where the body is place and touch the cofin... he cry when he touched it as if he does nt bear him to be gone forever from him.... the sight of this make mi heart pain..... becos this is the 1st time i see my dad so sad.... mayb when my grandpa die he is more sad but i m too small to rmb it.... when the cofin was bought to the place where it is to be burn into ashes, the whole room which are fill with relative cry.... i at 1st tot that i can control my tear and nt cry again... but seeing tat my 2nd uncle is being burn away in tat cofin make my tear flow down again.... i just lie down the railing to cry as i cant bear seeing his cofin being transport into the burner place..... I tink this is one of the saddest day i will ever have...
How i wish i have answer him properly when i have the chance.. But all is too late.... I jus wan to tell whoever who is reading blog to treasure the person dear to u now.... As we may have no chance to talk to them after today.....
So fast the CNY going to be over in about a week time.... Ahhhh.. how i wish it will be CNY mood whole year on.... ha ha.... i also dunnno y i like CNY so much.... but i really enjoy the CNY season.... mayb becos everyone is happi ba.... no matter winning or losing, everyone will be smiling becos it is CNY.... Mayb CNY is a happi season... so it passes by veri fast.... Good time always flies past us.... Bad time will be crawling over so slowly tat the time seem to be forever and ever and ever..... ZZzzzzzz.... So sian... after CNY is valentine day.... so so sad... haha.... i tink i will be alone again tis year..... zzzzzz... mayb buy chocolate for myself ba...ha haha..... zzzzz.... somemore the school life seem to be more and more boring... i like everyday go school for afew lesson.... i damn dun like teh marketing lesssonn.... the teacher damn cheapo de.... everytime say finish the question can go den finish le keep on finding somemore thing for us to do.... ahhhhh... somemore the project... O-o i feel like going to faint liao....zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
Everyone is born to love and be love...... Onli that some haven learn how to learn to love other ppl.... there is alot of ppl u love.. yr frens, parent, silbing, cousin, relative... there is surly someone who occupies a important in yr heart...... Someday, somewhere, we would suddenly learn how to love other ppl as they deserve..... and dun deprive other ppl of their love.... dun break other ppl heart.......